All of a sudden the Impressive one stands in front of me after months of silence. My mannerless heart starts beating double stroke and I fall out of focus. Is it love or nuclear power? In a world threatened by running out of nature resources and power it’s an honour to be given this kind of energy and a crime to not let it through – whatever it is. But I have a master plan written on the studio wall, a vision, a clear direction, a dream, and a goal…
Sunday morning enjoying breakfast at the kitchen balcony. My new apartment is on the top floor in the house and offers two sunny balconies to the 400sqf living area, one in connection to the kitchen the other in connection to the living room, adding such fineness value to the space and to my life. Soundtrack: Luther Vandross – Take you out
The last 6 month I have been commuting to the oncologist lab for testing if I am well from my lymphoma or not. I can now ad to my experience bank how it feels to get a cord with a camera down my throat while still being awake and I look like I have been through a ninja fight with stiches everywhere; on neck, chest, tummy and you name it plus all the scans of course. A long wait. Finally I got answer last week; I am well and can now move on with my life, finding the road to success.
Swedish people love early mornings. Starting work at latest 08.00am (after an hour drive or so), so you can finish earlier (and fall asleep to children’s TV because there’s no sap left in your poor body). Today it’s Lucia and you have to start even earlier. Dressed up in night dress the Lucia procession entertains you with X-mas carols, mulled wine (still before 08.00am) and saffron buns. At hospice they were more into radioactive sugar instead but I could see them and hear them. Nice.
September 8 I was declared with a clean health bill. “Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” (Steve Jobs).
When the only thing that is left of you is the love you receive and the love you can give priorities becomes easy. You know exactly what to do. And you do it. I go creative; design stuff, produce things and move the business forward. Locked up at Thorax I designed a graphic profile for a Swedish actor. I turned the remuneration into another piece of creativity; J Dauphin / Ann-Louise Landelius Love their products and the Ann-Louise Landelius store in Stockholm is a splash of freshness.
They call it chemo I call it super detox. They say cancer I say I got a bug in the system. In the beginning of March I was diagnosed with lymphoma. Aggressive and nasty. Huston we got a problem! Honey I’m home and I dropped a cancer bomb in the hallway! I moved in with my friends and spent 3 month under the cherry tree in their garden. A very beautiful place for super detox.